Finally.

I don’t know why I keep thinking of you, and why it bothers me so much that I can’t seem to get a hold of you. Perhaps it is the dreams I keep having where it seems we are very good friends, and I am getting that mixed up with reality- where really we are just two employees of the same area, who have met randomly and occasionally have a nice and uplifting conversations in between our jobs. I keep looking for you, but you seem to never be at work anymore….
You asked me awhile ago if I am always this happy. I was taken aback, but I quickly (and jokingly) replied, no, but I try to pretend my best. ..
That question, and your sincere expression for a real answer, has been following me, and that’s why I’ve been…seemingly following you, to apologize.
You see, truth is, I’m not all that chipper at all. I’ve recently been diagnosed with Depression, and as glad as I am to finally KNOW, I am in constant battle with myself on the inside. But I’ve faked for years, so I continue to do so even now.
Now though I want to be honest. And I want to be honest with you, though we may not really know each other well enough, and you may not give a care at all, but I feel like you deserved an honest answer. That doesn’t mean I’m constantly wallowing in hopelessness and always being fake. No, most of my smiles are real now- and I know the only thing that has kept me alive (literally) is Hope and Truth. Truth of who God really is, and Hope that I will surely find it if I continue.
By the way, its kinda awkward talking to you now that I’ve had those dreams. I hope it doesn’t show. Have a good day- what’s your name again? I’ve forgotten, and you always call me by name. (that always makes me smile) Talk to you later, I really hope to see you sometime.
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(In case any of you are wondering, yes this is to a real person. )
I really appreciated and loved all the feedback I got on the post about language, you guys had a lot of very good and valid points to mull over. I’ve decided that in needed situations, using such strong language can be permissible to aid in conveying emotions, whereas there are other areas I just shouldn’t utter anything even close. It’s the ones in-between that I’m still “eh” on.
More thoughts coming....I always love to hear yours.

Today I got in a "heated discussion" with someone who was offended that I used the term "crap".
They said I was basiclly saying s**t, to which I replied no, no, I meant poop. The person then argued that I was using it as a euphemism though, meaning that I was hiding a more crude word in a less crude way, and either way, I was not letting "my yes be yes, and my no be no" when there was no poop to be seen....

Now, I understand that yes, crap is not the nicest term to use. Neither is s**t. But how does that differ from "My goodness!" or "Dang-it!". Either way, I'm humanly expressing a feeling of frustration- but I am not using my Lord's name in vain, or damning anyone around me.
I don't want to be someone who commonly uses those terms and any related terms lightly. When you do that, you become less seen as someone who thinks creatively, not using the gift of language well, and your opinions and thoughts are not as regarded.

So what is the Christian response? And I'm not just asking Christians- I'm asking all of you, what is your raw opinion? What do you think of slangs words, swears, etc? When is it okay- or should it never be, is it really lying? (Note: I do not take lying lightly...there is no such thing as a "white lie"- so then is this what some consider to be so?)


(Hoping this post finds ya'll well- and yes, I really mean that.)

Now we're back to the Begining. Its just a feeling and no one knows yet...

Back in the day I used to be an avid blogger. Not the intellectual sort- but the one who had nothing better to do then write utter nonsense and hope it would get attention. I suppose everyone who blogs, tweets, facebooks, etc want SOME form of attention- but this was 13 year old want.
I liked changing the interface a lot, and made a new user name probably every other month.

I thankfully moved on, and have been learning to have a life. Recently though, because of a lot of life-altering decisions and changes I have been going through, I've been feeling a pull to document this to the world, as an encouragement for those who might be going through the same sorts of subjects, and to let those I know how I am.

So hi blog world again. I hope this finds you well.
Now I shall go catch up on the Olympics.

Q:
Have you been watching the Olympics? Whats been the highlights for you?
What sort of online craze have you had past issues with, and how did you overcome it?